Thursday, September 13, 2012

paeds~n me~

I somehow know that paediatric will be my pitfall
the first day I set my foot in the ward

no matter how much effort I put
no matter how much things I done
I couldnt make it~

I was mostly hurt by prof x's comments
I know Im not a good leader..
I will never be

but she doesnt have to go criticizing me to everyone~
she doesnt need to put every blame on me~~

Today~
at the end of posting

this is the exam I am most disappointed with myself
I do badly~!
I just know it
I make Dr Zainab disappointed with me

Im a failure...I cant be a good leader
if everyone doesnt cooperate
maybe I was too harsh on myself and to others
I shouldnt go putting my principles on time management to others
but I really couldnt stand late-comer
maybe after this I can rest
I can be a follower again

this study week~
I will make sure I know everything
I will make sure to cover up everything that I have done badly
I will make them see I can do well
I will not let my emotion hinders my work again..

I Promise Myself~!


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